Rends takes a long while to consider his answer.
"I honestly don't know. I don't like givin' it up, but... it jest feels like somethin' I should do. I don't know. maybe I'm wrong about it."
He shakes his head, growing frustrated.
"I don't like not knowin' what to think. You know I's never been one to stop and think a whole lot. I see a split path, and I go with my gut. But my gut let me astray in a bad way, so I'm tryin' new things now I guess."